August 13, 2006 my whole world changed. Here I am 34 years old with a month old daughter, a ten year old daughter, and a 6 year old son, and I am being told I need a biopsy on my right breast. I have never been so scared in my life, since I had already lost my Mother to this terrible disease. So the next few months was filled with doctors, scans and hospitals. I am young scared and a single Mom of three. I did not want to have a double mastectomy, so after seeing three different doctors that was my best option to avoid it coming back after being diagnosed with stage 2 Ductal Carcinoma.
So on February 11, 2007 I went in to have a double mastectomy. I will never forget that day laying back in the operating room waiting for my IV so scared and feeling so alone with tears streaming down my face knowing my world was changing. All I could think about was my three beautiful children and how I was doing this for them. I never wanted them to feel what I felt losing my Mom at 13 to this disease. The weeks after the surgery was terrible not only the pain, but looking at the scars and how I felt about myself. No one can prepares you for that and how you will feel. Everything just moved so fast after that. After chemo and watching my body change even more, with losing hair, being sick and weak. I wanted to quit give up just be done, but how could I leave three people that needed me the most. I remember laying in the hospital so sick and just out of if from all the meds and pain meds and feeling something touch my hand and seeing my Mom standing there saying you can do this and everything would be just fine. At that moment I knew I would fight with everything in me, and even though I felt so alone at that moment I didn’t feel that way anymore.
Over the past year after getting through treatments I finally was able to get reconstruction surgery. Wow they sure don’t prepare you for that either. This has been a long hard road! So far I have had 31 reconstruction procedures and I am getting ready to have another one. I have so many other medical problems that I never had before after all of this. I now have Lupus and a heart condition and many other issues. Breast cancer has always been in my life as long as I can remember with my Mom, Sister and myself. I test BRCA positive which is a genetic gene that made my chances of getting it 85%. I have two beautiful daughters that I worry about every single day that they could have to go through this as well. This is why it is so very important that we support breast cancer research and find a cure for this disease that takes hold of so many women.
Getting breast cancer forever changes your life in so many different ways. It has taken me many years to be that person that was proud of themselves and not be ashamed of how my body looked or my scars. Those scars made me a strong woman that wants to do better in life and fight for what she wants. It took many years to get back in that dating world after all the surgeries and health problems. I thought who would want me I am damaged. So untrue on September 4 2010 I met a man that didn’t care about my scars or what health problems I had. On December 17, 2011 that man is now my husband and everyday he reminds me he married me for the woman I am not what I look like on the outside.
So ladies if you have ever had to go through this never ever feel less than. God has a plan for us all and he has blessed me in so many ways. The things I used to take for granted I don’t anymore. Some days now I don’t want to get out of bed, but I do because I know God gave me another chance at life and I plan to live it being thankful. So please support Breast Cancer Awareness month and help us find a cure so other woman do not have to experience this!